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Wednesday, November 24, 2010 Blog, hey... Today i found something that it really hurts me to the max, to the core, to the highest peak where you could happen to anyone that have died..... After we broke, she found another one... how fast... why.. why must everything happen on me... WHY MUST THIS FUCKING THING HAPPEN TO ME !. ;,( I really feel like sobbing now... but what will it gain... theres nothing I can do now.. I did so much, just want to patch back with you.. and all you could say was.. You don't want to hurt the one you treasure.. I didn't know till now, that your are referring to him... I didn't... not till.. I realise everything... I'm such a fucking silly boy.. I should just kill myself.. Life sucks, really... the relationship status, i really thought you wanted singlehood... but i was wrong.. it was him, all him... you change, you really do... All those lies you told me, the lies you told me about not loving him, that you treat HIM and ME as FRIENDS ONLY!!!.. ALL WERE LIES.. This is my last post , cause... I realise, theres nothing i can really do... You love him, you really do.. but I just can't accept that you already went so far with him when we just broke 1 month only... All these time, i was being played.. I didn't know.. I really didn't know~.. Im so silly to listen to myself, why did i do that.. why did i cause myself so much hurt.. Tell me, Just tell me, why did you say you love me when you are already with him, why did you lie to me saying that you want me to wait when you are already with him... I feel so fucked D: .. I feel like I'm played, I'm just a toy.. I don't deserve any true love.. Love doesn't exist in this world, it's all lies from each other mouth.. If you can lie the longest, you are the winner... and yes, you won... congrats to you... I'm tired of Crying... im tired of shedding all these tears for you, when all you did , was to love another guy... Cuddle, hug.. you and him.. You just make me so hurt~... I will never believe in any true love anymore, it isn't real... it's just a fake pill... it isn't real in anyway... Help, I really do need... I feel helpless now, I really do... The blow is too hard, I can't take it.. Yes I've forgotten about you, I've let you go... But... I just didn't expect for you to lie to me such a big lie... You told me, you won't fall for him, he's just a friend to you.. normal friend.. LIES.. All LIES.. It ain't true..... Maybe from now on, you live your life, I live my life, If i ever go smoke, go clubbing, join gang, slit wrist.. It ain't your fucking problem anymore :,( .. If you didn't know... yes, i put in 100% in this relationship, I expected everything, I really thought we could be a pair, get married and such.. but I'm just a substitute.. All the times where we spent.. It all seems like memories~... It is hurting me, every single thought... On Friday, You were meeting him, you just didn't want to tell me.. I realise it's him.. It's him... you told him to meet you at other place, it's him.. it's not the others you told me.. Why must YOU LIE TO ME... you told me to get lost, you were just meeting him at AMK , you lie to me again and again... why? is it fun?, you told me to forget you, so you can just go to him.. It all make sense.. I understand now.. you said " You want me to let go and don't hold on.", It was referring to me ... so that i won't feel sad if you go to him right... I will ask you to read my blog bah... but if i didn't and you found this, I just guess i was too sad to say anything... I don't know how to describe my emotions now... I was very angry and i kept shivering when I know about this, but... after a while, I feel terrible.. I feel emotionally hurt.. You don't have to care about me anything and anymore... whatever I do now even if it's wrong don't you ever fucking care about me... You will just hurt me only.. I feel very sad.. sigh... I can't carry myself up already... Whatever you and him progress to.. all the best to you.. last long. Regarding the photoshoot.. you tell me when you want bah.. Labels: lies... |
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